Every year on your birthday and on your death date I am completely content and calm. I always think of the happy moments and remember how much you took care of me when I was little. But whenever I’m alone by myself my guard drops and I can’t help but break down. I wish you didn’t leave us. I wish I could see you get married and babysit your kids. I wish that me you and Christina and Andrew could all be together one more time. I wish you were here to protect me and Hannah. I wish you were in your bed upstairs at Aunt Lana’s house next time I visit so I could run up the steps and jump on you to wake you up! I was the only one you didn’t ever yell at for waking you. I wish you could see how strong your mother is and how she’s finally happy but still misses you terribly. I wish you could see how much our family is nothing without you. I miss you and I love you. Rest in peace Charles